Why did things turn out this way? What happen to us ?...

It broke my heart when i heard that.

My instinct failed on me this time, i thought you still love me, i thought. My instinct has always been accurate but this time i seem to lost it. It really seem like a knife stabbing right through me, it fcking hurts...You lied saying you wont leave . You really make me feel so worthless... Fcking worthless.. How do you even forget me ? Remember how you would care for me ? Where did you go ?.. Why did you change ?.. What happen to us ? Really what exactly happen... I fcking wanna know. I really wish i;m off dead, i fcking wish.. I make myself in this state, no one can save me. I always fell hard, and things always turn out like this. He was like this, you're like this too...After all those things i did, nothing could make you stay and hold on to me ? Really speechless....