Come back, be here

I just don't know how to feel anymore . Look at the amount of things you did for all of them and the things you did for me, you're really making me feel that you're taking advantage of me because you know I would always be there for you. I don't hate you, I really don't but I won't deny that there's a grudge in me. A very very big grudge in me. I really can't swallow it down, neither can I forget abt it. I don't know how disappointed am I in you, really utterly disappointed . It's really gonna be the last time I'm hoping something from you. Yes I won't deny that I'm shutting myself down from everybody slowly. I won't open up to anyone anymore. Really tired of getting disappointed .. And yes I still miss you, so much but .. There's literally nothing I can do abt. I was right isn't it? I told you before, you would be the first to stop loving, you really did . I just don't know what to do with my life anymore. Like I said, I'll wait or you but I'm no longer hope for anything. I'm waiting for you to text me, not because of anything , I just wanna stay in contact with you. Knowing you're doing fine in school and outside, I'm satisfied. I just wish for you to come back, this time not love, but friends . I just wanna be friends back like how we used to be. I'll really make sure I don't step beyond the boundary of our friendship. I really regret so much . Come back ...