I just wish for the old you back

It's been some time since we last talked, how are you ? Have things go right between you and her? I still miss you, so much, everyday .. But i really very disappointed in you but i can't get you off my mind. It's not that i didn't try, i did but it doesn't seem to work. You know how hard i've been trying to make myself tired everyday so that by the time night come i will be too tired to think about you. I've been making myself insufficient sleep for the past few days just to let myself tired. Yes i'm tired, tired of missing you... I honestly just wanna feel special this birthday.... My only wish is to have you back, but this time nothing else but friends. Like how we used to be, the old you that would tell me secrets and how you feel... I really miss the old you alot :( Know what's my this year new year resolution was ? I wanted to be someone important to you and yes i did got it but.. i lost it too.. Whatever i do never seem to be enough for you.. Never .