helpless

It's really killing me deep inside, i've tried to fight it through but i still can't. I wish i could let go, i wanna be happy or rather at least not feeling like now. I feel like shit, everyday... Knowing how much i do, or how much i try to change myself, you wouldn't see it ...It really hurts..So much. You don't know how i'm feeling, you wouldn't bother too.. Wishing i could have you everytime, but it's bothering me. It really is, idk if it's making me more hard to let you go or what. But i just don't feel good. After so long, i cried, for you. Because it hurts knowing i'll never be good enough for you, knowing that i don't matter, knowing that whatever i do things won't change, knowing hard work don't get paid off... Someone tell me what to do, to feel better... Talking to you only makes me more attached to you, it won't work, neither will you talk to me about all this, because you don't care and never did... i really feel so helpless right now..