Each and everytime i try to be better in a sense that i try to be strong to not want you that much and distance a little from you, and when i'm doing good , you have to always come and talk to me. It's not the first time.. Why is it so?... I'm really trying very hard to not be that needy and be strong enough to be by my own. But everytime you started talking to me back, i just can't help it. I really don't know what to do anymore. All this time , is my effort and love wasted? Don't you have a little feeling for me? I honestly feel like a stupid fool to keep wanting you so much... How long can i hold on like this for? When can i ever be strong enough to be independent and not need anyone in my life? I crave for your attention and your love so much. And i'm really suffocating , and it hurts so much... Seeing you talking to the girl in the game makes me jealous but i can't do anything at all, because you're not mine... All along it's my wishful thinking, one sided love...
When will you ever realise i'm always here ? I never left, you're the one who left..... All those thoughts are really killing me... Days like this, i wish i was never here. People i love will always be people i lost.. If right from the start i didn't fall, none of this would have happen. Perhaps we will still be talking normally. People are right, ' the one who falls first,loses.' And i lost, like i always do....
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