It really hurts so much..

Because it really hurts..  

New year, same shit. Just the first day of a new year, things are already getting bad. I don't see how good things will change honestly. So heartbroken, so sad, so hopeless, but there's nothing i can do about it..  The way you feel for her and the way i feel for you are the same. No matter what, just be happy. Always remember there's a stupid fool that love you so much. I can't be the one that make you happy no matter what. But she can. Just a simple smile from her, you'll be satisfied.  The same goes to me, just a simple smile.or anything, I'll be satisfied.  It's just the small things that counts.But.. forget it. You know my heart sank when i saw that reply.. Trying so hard to show that I'm alright.  I tried so hard, so much, so long but you still can't be moved. I know why, i really do.  But I'm not gonna say it. If, just if only...  I really don't know what else to say nor do.  Whatever i can do, i already did. Tell me,  just tell me what should i do next? Don't ask me to give up cause you know i can't.  I just want you to stay no matter what, don't treat me cold. Is it so hard? Sigh. That text i sent you and that text you sent her, you used what i said to you to sent it to her, you just simply change the words. Ha. What else to say? Fcking heartbroken when i saw but i still put up a strong front. I'm not mad, I'm just heartbroken.  That's all. New year resolution? 'To be someone important to you ' It won't come true, it won't.