So fcking lost

Perhaps this can explain how i'm feeling right now ?

I wish someone could tell me what to do next, because i really don't know what to do.. I feel so fcking lost. Feel so fcking miserable. Really don't know what else to do anymore. Fighting the urge to talk to you , get close to you but i failed. I can't . It isn't easy to let go of someone i fall for, i can but it just takes a longer time. I don't usually fall for people, but when i do i hold on till the day i really gets too tired to continue holding on. It won't make an exception for you, because i fell for you more than i fell for him. I'm going to let go but not now, not tmr but eventually i will. I don't really know exactly when i fell for you but i know it was when you like the previous girl. Been a month i guess ? Well, it doesn't matter at all. What matters is that you being happy, i want you to be happy . I get mad, jealous all because i care, if i don't i wouldn't have did so much things. I really wish you could feel the same way like how i feel about you but you will never. If it didn't hurt, means i didn't fall for you. But the truth is, it really hurts . How do i stop caring for you? How do i stop falling deeper for you ? How... Perhaps i should have some ego, leos have high egos but i really got no idea why i don't have it at all. I think i'm weird but ya i need to have some ego. Shouldn't give in or whatsoever so easily.