'Happy Birthday'

Happy ? I'm not sure.

Before the day end today i shall post this, afraid i won't have time ltr so ya . Firstly, i should say happy 17th birthday to myself . Before my birthday even start things went bad but thank god everything was over. Wesley, si en, si yun, edmund, shaoxion, ryan and ruisheng waited for 12 and cut the cake. I looked like some small children when i held the knife, i got no idea why but i'm so happy. Even they said me, they said i hold the knife can so happy. But definitely, i'm really happy. They even said i'm demanding because i kept on saying i want my birthday song. It's so sweet of them, first time celebrating with them, didn't even expect that they will celebrate for me . They gave me what i wanted, not exactly what i wanted but i just felt very happy when they helped me celebrate.Yep i was really very happy . Rushed home because xinying, jonathan, jiahui, jarald and marcus came to my hse. Thanks guys, thanks for the present too. I was happy when i saw you wishing me, can't explain why i'm just happy . Though the feeling fade but i'm still very happy. What i thought was, you're gonna come tgt with them but you didn't. Ohwell it's alright . To be honest, my birthday wish was to have you to love me back like how i did, but i doubt it'll ever come true so forget it. Remember that guy that i said before, my ex.. He wished me too, i was happy about it too. Till now i'm still having that mixed feeling. But ohwell, it doesn't matter. It doesn't matter what i wish for, just want everyone to be happy that's all. 

Honestly, i realised no one truly understand me . Totally no one. The one that understands me most already left. No one else could understand me more than him.