Hope ?
Mood totally went down in the afternoon, it wasn't that bad. But the moment i woke up from nap, that sucky feeling... Hate it so much. Hoping that my effort would paid off, hoping that miracles would happen. bullshit. Everything was bullshit. I was trying to deceive myself all along. Mentally and physically tired . I know i have not been acting like myself but i just didn't wanna talk. Really glad to have them with me. I may look strong on the outside but deep down i'm not, i was just putting up a strong front. And yes, i decided to stop, i'm tired. Really tired already. I had rather tell them i'm okay instead of having to explain why i'm not. Apparently i'm not okay, but in time to come i'll be alright. I just need a getaway so badly, i wanna get out of this shit. I wanna be happy. But how do i even be happy when i get so affected easily ? I'm really losing hope .
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