Helpless

Can i have this pretty pretty please ? ) :

Been feeling so helpless this few days, ever since that day. Sigh. How could you even said that ? Dont you need to have a thought for me ? How would i feel ? Gosh, i swear my heart sank when you said that. Tried not speaking to you, tried not to show that i still care, it's really hard.. In the end i still failed ya, i always cant control. Not the first time. Can't you just treat me better ? Do you have to treat me like this ? Do i deserve all this ? Fml. Things didn't get better, it seems like it got worst. Grrrrrr. You didn't like girls who smoke, i decided to quit because i wanted to try to change for the better. But no matter what i do, it never seems to be good enough for you. Tell me what else can i do to have you to pay attention to me more ? 

Been thinking so much this few days, cant stop myself from thinking.. Mood really have been bad since that day. I just cant get over it. Tell me if you want me to give up, i really dont wanna hang around like this anymore. Mentally and physically tired of every single thing.. Sigh

Have alot to blog but now i really got no idea what to blog, seem to be speechless the moment i started typing. What is exactly happening to me ? 

I wanna restart everything, my life, my feeling, my thoughts. I just wanna start all over again.