Lost .

Totally lost.

Been sometime since i last updated my blog, having the feel to update so here i am . Everything started with one guy, i used to like him to the extend that i lost myself during the process of getting him back in my life. We have been together for 1 year 1 month. Yea, it still ink in my brain clearly. No idea why but i guess the memories he gave was way too much and that's the reason that kept me holding on to him, trying to get him back in my life for 7 months. That 7 months was basically so miserable.. still could remember it. And i finally moved on because i fell for someone else.. It just happen so quickly, it wasnt what i expected tho. I first talked to him was last year December, at first he was nothing to me at all until this year January, guess what? I fell for him. Too suddenly, i don't even know why. Someone asked me a few times, 'what do i see in him that make me fall for him?' Honestly speaking, i really got no idea, i just fell for him. I just love him the way he is. Sound ridiculous but it's true. Been 5 months already, he doesn't seem to have any feeling, well.. i'm not sure about it too. I have a feeling that he kindof likes me but.. it's impossible. Tried so many times, yes i claimed that i'm tired but i still kept on trying. I got no idea why, i just can't stop caring about him. Even if i say i don't care anymore, i'll still care in the end.. That's just me. Forever softhearted, i'll never learn to be heartless. I suck .

And suddenly there's another problem appearing, a guy started to say he wants to jio me, basically he's my friend friend, i don't even know what's happening. Someone just save me. I'm just too lazy to elaborate so much. Too hard to explain..

Really need to find a getaway.. things forever don't go my way. I miss him.