Be strong .

Lesson learnt.

It's really a lesson learnt through out all this months. Never let the same thing fool you. Fool me once, shame on you, fool me twice, shame on me . And i always get fooled twice before i start to really learn. And i tell myself this from now on, if someone ever let me down, i'm never gonna give them the chance to do it to me again. I'll learn to be heartless , if not i'm gonna be the one getting hurt again. I'm starting to get used to being alone. Don't have to need any guys to make me feel better, i'll make myself better. I hope one fine day, those who left me, those who let me down will regret not cherishing me.
I still do miss you, but i clearly know things will never be back . So this will only stay in my heart :') You taught me so much , and ofcos other people taught me alot too. Never ever put in so much effort into someone who doesn't feel the same, never be good to guys, never care so much, and alot more. But what's more important is , love yourself first, if not no one will love you. Honestly i'm not used to being alone, yes ofcos i want someone to be by my side but idw to get hurt anymore. And i should start learning to be alone,and get used to it. Never fall first, and never fall too much too. So much just so much things, going on in my mind. And i wish everything would just stop because i'm tired, really tired of all this things. When will i really be okay and when will i be happy again?...

What do you even mean it's your happiest day of your 20 years? That 3 years with me , aren't you happy with me? Whatever you wanted i always make the effort to give it to you no matter how tough is it for me. Isn't that enough? Ok fact is, it's not enough if not you wouldn't leave. Just so upset at the things you say. Didn't think before you speak? What i do is all wasted isn't it? All along for that 3 years, you don't even love me, you're just accompanying me is it? Playing me is it? Just what's wrong with you? zzz