I just want to have some time of our own.

It's true .

Was really upset about it because i specially took off for the two days just because i wanna spend more time with you, but guess what, your priority still got you not me. I just want to find something that i can vent my anger on but i don't know what... Grrr. I'm just so disappointed. I won't get my hopes high for you anymore, i don't wanna be disappointed anymore. I want to be happy, why is it so hard ? You're the one who can make me happy without putting in effort but at the same time, you're the one that could make me heartbroken .. Whenever we quarrel, it's because of this. Why ? Because i can never be your first priority, never will i. I'm always second to you. But you're always first to me, fck it. I wanna let it go but i just can't. I know you're making an effort to balance both side but sometimes you really side to the priority more, it's true, you can't deny about it. I hate it, i really do but i can't do anything. Right from the start i already know how you are, but i still fell for you and now i've got to suck it up. I honestly don't know how long can i continue with this. Someday if i decided to give up, you should know why.. I tried .. I really did. I feel the effort and i'm blessed to have you but it's the priority that's making the distance from us. If i was given a chance, i'll still love you. So afraid the day might come, i don't want to lose you. Because if i were to lose you, i'm not only losing someone whom i love, i'll be losing my bestfriend.. You're the best i could ever had so far, please don't make me give up. I really hate how things are right now, i wish things didn't happen. And it's true that people will always have time for the things they put first, you're an good example. I just wish i was your priority, but i'm not, I'm always second, always, never will i be the first, never...
If you happen to read my blog, i'm sorry for causing so much trouble, i'm sorry for making you upset, i'm sorry for giving you headache, i'm sorry for everything. Maybe i just can't make you happy. Just sorry for everything.