Wake me up when everythings over

I guess i can't explain how i feel anymore, only pictures can.

So speechless against what i heard. And yes i chose to kept quiet abt it instead of telling you and end up arguing with you because i had rather lose an argument than losing you. I don't know if i'm angry or what, i just don't know how to feel anymore. You should know i never wanted to lose you. Yes, you're not even mine to begin with but i just don't wanna lose you z. You just don't know how important you are to me.  Little talks mean as much to me rn. We're still drifting and yet i can't do anything about it. Exhausted , both mentally and physically. Acted like i didn't care, but deep down i really do care alot. You got no idea how much i miss you, the old you.. Why did you change ? Remember how close we used to be ? Remember how much we used to talk ? Remember how you always disturb me ? Do you even remember all this things ?  Can barely remember the smile on your face you gave to me. I really don't remember when was the last time you smiled at me. It's been long since i felt like this. I hate to tear up because i never wanted to feel so weak .  But still i teared z. Can i have the old you back ? I really doubt is because of working that makes you tired that's why we drifted. My instinct tells me it's something else. I really wanna know what went wrong ..

我做的还不够多吗？能给的，我都给，我还能做些什么? 我丛来都不说不，不是因为我愿意，是因为我爱你。我丛来都不生气，不是因为我没有脾气，是因为我爱你。我丛来都不哭，不是因为我没有眼泪，是因为我爱你。不知到还能做什么 ，累了真的累了。怎么办？