Heartbroken

Was so heartbroken yesterday, cried all the way from west coast to tampines . I couldnt bear to leave him there. I really want to bring him back but i fcking cant.  He became skinner, i knw he's afraid, i knw he wanna go home badly but i cant do anything and i swear it sucks.  Tearing as im blogging this . I just feel so fcking heartbroken. If bro didnt bring him back, he wouldnt have suffered.  What hurts most is when i said come kiwi lets go home, he immediately climb in the car and held on to the gear and chair of the car, he refuses to get down, i had to carry him out. When i was in the car, i opened the window to touch him, i could hear him crying.. When the car drove off. he chase behind, that was the worst part. Why is he suffering like this... Really breaks my heart. Sigh